Sunday, November 29, 2009
I’ll reach for your hand in the cold of winter, I’ll reach for your hand in the heat of summer. But if my short life can’t reach the dawn of spring, I promise, in heaven, I’ll reach you with my wings.
if you hide, I’ll seek for you. If you’re lost, I’ll search for you. If you leave, I’ll wait for you. If they try to take you away from me, I’ll fight for you. Cause I never want to lose someone I love.
If someone would ask me what a beautiful life means, I would lean my head on your shoulder, hold you close to me and answer with a smile, “Like this.”
When I say I love you, please believe it’s true. When I say forever, know I’ll never leave you. When I say goodbye, promise me you won’t cry. Cause the day I’ll be saying that would be the day I die.
i promise to be there when you need me, I promise to hug you tight when you’re lonely, I promise to wipe your tears when they fall and I promise to keep you, not for the rest of my life but for the rest of yours.
If lightning strikes, I’d cover my heart so when it hits me, I’d fall happily knowing I protected you. Cause I spared the place where you have always been.
I’d rather be blind than not see you. I’d rather be deaf than not hear from you. I’d rather lose my voice than not say this to you, that I’d rather lose my heart than not love you.
love you but you make me cry, you hurt me and make me feel stupid. But you know why I hold on? Cause I know I’ll be crying harder, get hurt even more and feel dumber if I ever let you go.
wish you were with me so I can tell you directly how much you mean to me. I’ll hold you tight and hug you near my heart so that you can hear what it’s trying to whisper, “You’re the reason why I’m beating.”
If Death would need one more soul and he asks me to choose between you and me, what I’m gonna do is ask him for one more minute then I’ll hug you as tight as I could and tell Death, “Let’s go. I’m ready!
I miss you not because you miss me but because you taught me how to feel the emptiness when you’re not here. I love you not because you love me but because you taught me everything I never knew existed before.
I’m not asking you to stay for the rest of my life, stay as long as you want. No why’s, no how’s, no but’s, no promises. Just stay. It’s more than enough.
I’m not sure what I am to you and what we are right now but what really matters is you’re so damn special to me and I mean my life only for you. All I’m after is for you to know, you don’t have to feel the same.
I know there was something very special about you but it still came as a surprise when you reached for the sky and pulled down the stars and made a little heaven here on earth just by coming into my life.
Although you may not love me, although you may not care, if you shall ever need me, you know that I'll be there. Your love may all be taken, your heart may not be free, but when your heart is broken, you can always lean on me.
all of the above if fer eu shyg... i hope by all this werdings eu noe how much i love eu... n how deep my love 2 eu shyg.... if cn.. i wanna be wyp eu fer ever... hmmm.. eu my a lucky guy dear.. well its not det i wanna be proud... bt its a fact.. eu noe y ryte sshyg... soo ssshhh low profile pls hehe.. heheh i will love eu till d end of my breath shyg... idk how 2 show my love but through all this werdss i hope eu understand.. i mae not be a gd gf fer eu.. i mae not b perfect fer eu.. i mae nt be as beutiful as eu imagine.. i mae not be as gd as wad eu 1.. bt 1 tynk is.. i reallie love eu.. eu mae not be perfect.. bt eu will be perfect if eu r in my heart 4ever dear.. eu ae b perfect wen eu r wyp me shyg.... i mae haf alot of problems here in my head.... bt wen eu r beside me... my problems will be gone.. my stress will slowly fade awae... wen im sad eu make me smile n laugh.. eu make my sadnesss fade awae 2 dear.. eu also change my lyfe style.... last tyme i use 2 be a nottie gherl.. b now.. eu change me 2 be a good gherl.. thnkx fer everytynk shyg....... i hope we cn last long yea...
Blogged @ 10:57 PM
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
hmm... well... my dae goeing on fyne fer me... accept fer some misunderstanding.. haha... well..
overall okae larhh...
i reallie mish my hubbie... wen cn i myt hym.. hmm... well... feeling lonely without hym by my side
now.... hahah...
wad is my hubbbie doing ryte now yea? hmm slping? eating? resting?
hahah.. hmph.. i hope he is fyne... heheh... ouh ya.. the storie of me n my hubbie... well... its about
6 mnths we been being couple.. hehe... n soon here come outr 7 mnths.. wow that was fast huh....
hahah... well through out our 6 mnths of being together,... im proud of our relationship cz we nvr
break patch b4. iszent det gr8.. hahah... sooo its cool.... hmph of course in EVERY relationship
there must be an understandong matter.. quarrel.. fight n more... dez noe relationshjip det is
super PERFECT ryte.. hahah.... well noe one is perfect neither... ryte? correct me if im wrong
guys.. hahah... sooo fer now im happy wyp my one n onlie MOHD AZRIN BIN MOHD...
heheh.... he is my truely lover... my love 2 hym is more det wad eu all cn imagine....
heheh.. well i noe my love 2 hym is not that big... bt my heart is sincere...
'ku tahu cinta ku tk sehebat cinta adam kepade hawa...'
well i will give det 2 eu dear..
eu shud understaND it.. although my love is not bigger den wad eu tynk im sorrie.. bt i will try
my best 2 make it perfect love.. heheh... love eu shyg.... i mish eu soo much.. hope this coming
sundae i cn myt eu dear... hmmm... i hope i cn goe out... soo det i cn myt eu... hmm.... =(
well my storie wyp hym is one part of it.. my storie wyp my 'fren' zizy bunnie is another storie..
hahah.. well we are no longer besties.... we are just normal fren lyke eu n me... hahah... hmm... its
nt det he dumb me its jz det he dnt wanna be the middle person between me n my hubbie detz
all... he told me A-Z about wad hppn.. i tot he dumb me bt wad he sae is... he wan me 2 be
happie.. well i also wan everyone 2 be happie especially all my beloved frenzz n my one n onlie
hubbie.... hmmm.. bt now he sae he is lonely.... well.. im here fer eu bby bunie.. well.. although
my hubbie cntrl me wyp hu im mixing wyp... i still wanna thank hym... i m still thank full det i cn
still cntct my fren... well... he dnt let me cntct wyp all my ex(s) hmmm... well.. thnkx fer giving
me chance soo det i cn be in cntct wyp zizy boi.. thnkx dear.. appreciate it alott...
Labels: thnkx dear i reallie appreciate it alot for giving me chance 2 be frenz wyp my one n onlie FREN
Blogged @ 10:54 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
if eu lyke 2 cntct wyp det gherl... goe ahead r... siket pn tkde heran... tapy ingat abg... i will nt talk 2 eu anymore..... well.... i dnt lyke eu cntcting her get it!.. hmmm.... i hate it.. HATE IT!!!!
arghhh!!!! hmmm... knock ur head a little my bro... eu tynk i lyke eu cntcting her.. hey f.y.i i reallie hate her actuallie.. eu now y?? bcz of her frenship n realationship wyp det both fcking guyss.. idk how eu cn make frenz wyp det gherl... hmmm.... even ur adq nvr cntct det gherl.. idk isf behind my bck he cntcted.. hmm well i dnt tynk soo haish..... abg..... adq nk bagy tau 1 je..... abg nk kwn ngn die pergy larhhhh 1... tapy jgn skali2 cntct adq lagy.... adq tk suke.... phm!!!! abg nk ckp ape ckp larhh abg... adq da tk heran da abg... hmmm... adq da ckp dary siang adq tk suke abg cntct die bt eu still wanna cntct her kn goe ahead.. adq baek ngn die pn gtu2 je larhh.... adq pn kdg mlz nk dgr cite die r ehhh.. bile part die cite psl aiman n farid adq tk ckp pape larhh sia... bile part adq bbl psl hubbie adq... nnt die kate kau ngn kau peyhh ayiee.... waliaw!!!! pk perq fun fair r bbl 2 mcm... eh plsss larhh eh........... aq siket pn tkde ckp 2 mcm bile kaw bbl psl 2 due ekor ank monyet 2 tau.. sialan......... argh!!! da bgz eh aq plan nk uat rumours aq tk uat.. da bgz r eh.. kaw pk kaw ade kak lela kaw aq heran sgt perq..... relekxx sua........ yg kenderat 2 pn.. i goe fer money larhh eh........ argh!!!!!!! hate eu!!! walau pn kaw da break ngn 2 anak sialan... aq tetap tk suke.... phm!!!
n abg plsssss .. ingat r eh.... pk sbelom uat keputusan....... argh!! limit2 abg pili die kn
abg nk cntct die kn... hmmm... n ya... lau nk cntct ngn die gy je r... lupe kn adq....
ijust wanna sae thnkx r eh fe everytynk eu've done fer me n ur adq ayiee....
thnkxx alot je r eh.... appreciated it kae!! tapy ingat je r.. lau abg suroh adq break up ngn ayiee just bcz of diz i will not kae..... idk if ayiee will follow ur saying.. adq tau abg is hys bro.. tapy abg pn tkde hak nk suroh kite break..... hmmm.... da r... eh!! p pk btl2 r eh!!!
Blogged @ 7:43 PM
Friday, November 20, 2009
2dae in history... hmmm.... well... hang out wyp my boi at my house as per normal...well... fun as per normal 2.. hahah.. well... doe eu noe that actuallie my boi had a fright n scream if being tickle.. in other werd in malay MELATAR!! hahah...
well.. its such fun disturbing hym heheh... well.. den we slack2... hahah... well.. den he sae he got migrain.. hmmm.. sooo i message hys head.. den use medical oil den message hys head..... hmmm... den its oready tyme fer hym goe bck heheh...
well den he get ready 2 goe bck bt b4 det he look far n dae dream.. den wen he is getting ready 2 goe bck... den otw 2 lyf i asked hym y he look far n dae dream fer a while.. he sae tmrw he tell me...
well.. den i sae larhh... i noe det it will give me a fright... n i noe y... n wadz wrong... den he told me that he saw 'THAT THINGY WINGY..' i was lyke huh!!! hmm i was shock.. well... idk larhh.. its soo akward.. hmmm.. i dnt tynk i cn slp 2dae.. well bt i try my bes 2 slp larhh... hmmm.. need 2 slp early larhh 2dae heheh... well.. im kind of scared now... i feel lyke dnt believe it det..det 'THING WINGY THING' is in my house.. well... wan it or not i must accept the fact.. hmm.. well we nvr disturb that THING/.. fer wad we THEY wanna disturb i ryte....hmmm... well.. i hope ntg will hppn... hope soooo... heheh.... well... now im asking my msn fren 2 accompany me till around 2+ hmmm... well... i will not be on9-ing till 2 + i tynk.. if my bro slp i will slp larhh.... weii!!!!! TK BRANIE AWAKE SRG2 now a daess... heheh such a fun n scary dae 2dae heheh... well... now i dnt know wad 2 doe.. hmmm.... haish... im damn scaredie cat now.. haiyo... need 2 tell my mummy... hehehh.. MUMMY!!!! HELP ME!! heheh... daddy!!! heheh... k larhh i gtg... im fcking afraid here.. hmmm bye!!!!
Labels: mummy.......... i need ur help...... pak ustaz.... help.....................
Blogged @ 11:17 PM
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
its gd 2 noe det he is ok... hmm well.. kene probation aje... heheh... naseb2 sioot... heheh.. lau die masok fer 2 years... jwpan nye aq kene 2nggu larhh 2 years... well.. nie pn aq tk tau die werld ke tk... hmmm.. nvm larhh asl kn die bahagie dan tk saket kn haty aq sdh.. die nk tpu aq ?? hmmm.. well.. hope die tk uat lagy larhh lagy kae.. hmmm (2 pn lau die uat..)
now im happie fer hym.. hahah... well...cn hug2 hym cn kissh2 hym heheh... well i reallie mish hym eu noe.... eventhough everydae we myt i reallie mish hym.. well.. ik y larhh bt my love 2 hym is getting stronger... hmmm
bt idk y... siti asked me 2 break up wyp my hubbie.. im in the cetre... between my hubbie n siti.. haish....well.... its hard fer me 2 decide on that momment.. haish...
well 2 all bitches out der.. stop making up storries kae.. if eu 1 my hubie jz sae sooo tk y Uat citee lagy kae...
hahah
rumours.. lyke cking damn busted... heheh.. well detz y we call them FCKING rumours.. heheh.. hmmm.... last tyme get disturb by rumours larhh bt now not anymore... heheh.. fierce eu noe... scold all the rumours bck werds... heheh.... fierce r sia.. heheh... well.. hate all the rumours.... hmmm..
kae12.. ferget about the runours.. well.. now im happie wyp my hubbie.. this comming 30 november 2009...... i will be 7 mnths wyp my hubbie.... cool ryte... well.. along our 7 mnths... nvr break-patch b4 eu noe... heheh... how cool is that.. onlie det last tyme wen my hubbie wanna goe inside he asked me fer break up bt i reject it.. i said...... many tyngs... untill he change hys mynd.. hmmm.... well soo until now noe more about breaking up heheh.... cool ryte.. hahah
well.. fun 2 be wyp hym.. well he also change me alot guys... well hey gang.. im att now kae.... near 7 mnths oweady.... i love hym very2 damn much eu noee.. heheh... well....
he is my one in a million.... hahah.. well.. esh i love hym wyp all my heart.. he is the onlie 1 i love....
my ex???
hmmm
ash ?
mizi ??
well idk bout det.. bt fer now my love is onlie fer
MUHD AZRIN BIN MOHD
detz the onlie name in my heart kae pplfer today i reallie had a fun tyme.. wen he came.. we slack2 near the playground... den wen 2 vista point fer a while.. den slack at my house... hmm... we watch hindi'smovie..
FUN SIOOOOOTTT...
heheh.....
well.. we had a fun tyme larhh detz onliee wad i cn sae.. heheh....
well... love hym sia!!!
2 ALL BITCHES PLSS FCK OFF OUR LYFE...... BLA R~~!! I
LOVE MUHD AZRIN BIN MOHD.. N ONLIE HYM GET IT... 2 ALL
RUMOURS N ALL FCKING BITCHES.. FCK OFF KAE...!!!!!
yea... detz it.. remember det in ur mynd.. hahah...
well... i gtg now.. reallie had a fun tyme heheh..
FIONA BTE ISMAIL ONLIE CHYG MUHD AZRIN BIN MOHD
Blogged @ 12:17 AM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I tink i found my ms. ryte oweady .. Fifie is not lyke my other ex .. She is so different .. her
kindness , love n caring towards me make me so comfy .. she also make my lyfe go on .. When im
sad or mad with someone , she always calm me down n make me smile n happy .. She's my
dream gal alright .. I hpe i cn last lng wif her till my last breadth .. n hpe she wont break my
heart lyke my other ex do .. i love eu so much
FIONA BTE ISMAIL !!!
Im so proud to have a gal lyke fiona .. She is so swit .. She make my tears drop .. She show me
how true her love towards me .. When i lost my memory , she tried her best to make me regain
my memory .. She make fer me a video just to help me .. Its so swit of her ... i really appreaciate
her fer wat she done to me .. i wish i will be wif her fer the rest of my lyfe .. i love her so much ..
Hpe she dont play wif my feeling lyke my ex .. Im sincere bout wat i said to her .. my love
towards her is so true dat i dont wan to let her go no matter wat .. love eu my dear ...
well detz wad ayiee journal sounded lyke.. i hope he is sincere wyp all hys werdings.. haish...
well.. he fake me... he sae he wen in bt...... actuallie he was not....
haish my madness came 2 me.. haiyoyo... aiyaiyai.....
gimme a surprise ???
hmm...
well... nvm bout det.. now i get new storie frm my fren.. siti..... haish well...
idk larhh fifie bingong... tk tau pe nk uat.. haiyoyo....
hmmm siti sae prangai die stop it larhh....... n she sae laru tk die akn hilang kwn2 die n me...
eu noe wad he sae.. he sae
BAGOZ
i was lyke omg!!! is that reallie wad ayiee sae ??
omg!!
aq tk percaye... aq tanye ayiee n he sae its true... omg!!!! now at hys pm die ltk tkde kwn tk
heran r hidop srg2 pn canteqq r... hmmm
well.. does he realliewant it??
well... aq tk tau larhh kwn gdh... phamily prob..!!
argh!!!!
binget aq..
frustrated tau tk....
knape larhh hidop aq harus jady bergini.. ape salah ku.. haish...
aq hrp nie sume hanye miompi yg burok melandari diriku...
haish... aq bingong... aq tk tau perq nk uat skrgg nie... tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
tlg aq.... tlg... any body.. help me..... hmmm...
:'(
hmmm
well... aq skrg nie... pkran aje tau.. mcm nk pecah otak aq nie.. haish.. da larhh aq nk rest duluu
r.. da larhh smlm kpale aq kene hyt impact kuat shey.. untill now im not ok.. bt i sae 2 my hubbie
im ok.. sorrie fer tpu eu biie.. bt i tknk eu risaau..
im still not ok....
my head still hurts.. lagy2 nga pkran nie mcm.. da brape bnyq kali i muntah2.. .hmmm.... nie
lagy skali mesty mundah darah nye... haishh..... well... gtg.....
dada wanna rest.. my head hurts me more n more n more n more... hmmmm
Blogged @ 1:14 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
nariee.. phamily outing dae kn.. hmmm... sooo.. first tyng 1st is bile da kuar p mkn dulu.. heheh... ( lm mkn 1 aryy hahah) ...hmm
den p visit zuddin.. get the news det he will be discharge by 5... heheh.. soooo slack2 at KK hospital while waiting fer 5 oçlock fer my bro 2 be dis charge..... well.... quite boring larhh at there.. hehhe...
den after he is discharge.. my father plan 2 goe orchard.. well... merry christmas!!~!! soooo jln2 r... well bored plus happie pn ade.... hmmm... well.... many tyngs at there larhh sheyy... heheh we buy opld chang kee.. heheh.. SSSEEEDDDAAAPPP~~!!!
hahah.. krg2 jealous ke tk dpt?? huahahaha.. play2 onlliiee... well... best r narriiee... ade klaka2 pt sane.. heheh... tapyy pnt larhh sheeeyyy... hahah... smpai umh je da pkl 9.10 genap.. heheh... g2 larhh hahah.... den kasy my adq2 mandy den aq plk p mandyy.. den bla3 p mkn plk... heheheh.... hmmm..... den now here i am... updating my blog... nga update2 den my hubbie called me.... hahah.. soo bbl2..... well...
reallie damn mish hym... hmmm i hope ntg will hppn.. hmm esk die naek court... hmmm... hrp2 tk jady pape larhh... haish.. risau2 tau aq pt sinie.... hmmm...
i harap eu ok ok je kae bie... haish.........
tkpe larhh apape pn i akn doa kn eu ok ok je pape pn i harap tk akn jady pape kt eu kae.. hmmm
kae larhhh now i reallie need 2 be independent... haish.. sad2....
k larhh gtg toodles......
Labels: fun dae bt inside my heart is in a sad muuddddd
Blogged @ 10:58 PM
Saturday, November 14, 2009
today is my last dae i get to myt my hubbie.. i noe det i still haf 1 more dae 2 cntct hym.. stakat cntct wad pe ?? hmm.. if can i wanna myt my dear every single day every single second of my life i wanna be wyp hym... hmm... i will mish hym.. well... tadiie nk anta die aleq i wanna cry eeu now... he ask me 2 cry.. bt i just smile... its hurt in d inside.. i wanna cry bt i hold my tears inside.... i dnt 1 my tears 2 drop infront of my hubbie... well if it happenss i noe he will be more sad den i am now... well... i cn see det he also wanna cry (that a mae b).. i noe he is holding hys tears inside too... hmmm... well... as eu all noe... today is my last dae 2 myt hym..... mondae he will be inside.. well.. sempat tadiie gurau2 ngn die.. heheh oh ya ferget larhh 2 tell..... he sae he will not myt me today.. cz he sae gonna catch a movie 2012 n myt hys uncle after det.. bt im q.rius y must he catch a movie at CWP ?? oh well.. i did suspect anytynk at all.. heheh... den around 8.38 lyke det he called me.. said wad im doing.... hahah... hmmm.... i said nga nk tdo kn my adq diana.... hmmm...
den i ask hym.. eu pt ne ?? eu noe wad he sae.... he sae he was at TM... hahah.. den after brape minits my door bell bunyik.. i peek at the hold peek.. i tot the news paper man cz my mum haven pay yet fer 2 mnths i tynk.. hmm.. den i look carefullie.... i saw my hubbie's cap.. i tynk fer a momment.. in my heart sae.... 'it cnt be my hubbie cz.. he sae he will not be myting me today.. i look again i saw hys hoodies..' i try to take a look.. i open the door n my hubbie was dear.. he say suprised!!!! i was shock.. sweet of hym... hahah... gimme a suprised visit.. heheh.. well i was 2 excited den... hmmm... well... soo we slack2 r at my house.. hmm....
soooooo i disturb hym..... i called hym the name det he hate the most..."AJIN" heheh.. kacau2 die larhh aji-na-moto.. hahah.. well its quite funnie... den i get my small syz 2 goe 2 sleep... den after det... we play comp... hmmm after det.... slack at my room... hmmm klakar dokk kite... hmmm.. well.... den around 10.48 he sae he wanna goe bck.. well.. i made a sad face 2 hym.. he ask me y.. bt i just kept quiet... hmm.. i hope he understand wad im trying 2 sae.. i wanna sae det plss dnt leave me.. i wanna cry... hmm bt my mouth dnt wanna open.. n i hold my tears inside me... after he get ready 2 goe bck oweady... i accompany hym 2 the bus-stop... hmmm... hmmm wanna cry tahan je sheyy
hmmm biie.... i reallie gonna mish eu...
well tc of ur self kae shyg....
hmmm...... jgn nottie2 tau....
shyg eu......
Labels: well... otak nga blank n im stress soo dnt noe wat 2 ryte.. lau mepeq2 2 sorrie r
Blogged @ 11:23 PM
Friday, November 13, 2009
narie.. aq rase sad r... hmm tady ptg binget... binget psl ape ?? well i was very mad wyp my father..... cn eu imagine ur father scold eu just bcz of eu msging ppl... hmmm well get over it old man..... y cnt i be happie lyke others?? y cnt i ??
hmm... detz one about the afternoon story... hmm about yesterdae story laen dohh...
hmmm... its all about my hubbie... well sad storie passed my life.... hmm well... sad3... hmmm.. hys case open bck ??? cn i sae WTF!!! hmm... he lie or i heard the wrong thingy... hmmm...
idk wat 2 doe now.... very stress...... hmm.. mcm2 larhh 2 mamat... hahah.. well.. mcm2 pn mamat aq.. heheh.... bt i reallie stress now... my phamily one thing my hubbie 1 thing.. well.. my god bro da pt dlm pn.. soo i onlie haf my hubie.. bt now... he will be in also... hmmm wad a sad storie.... haish.... :'(
hmm... gonna cry all dae long if he wen in... well... he wen in left me all alone in this wide werld... bt although he is in.. i still stand up straight...... i gonna wait fer eu dear... noe matter wad... well.. dnt sae i dnt need 2 wait fer eu.. cz i will still doe it...... :'(
detz all my hope....... eu n abg acit da tkde pt luar.. krg pt dlm... tgl fifie srg2..... kwn pn tk gune... hmm.... lau rai... da sebok ngn rhyn..... same goes 2 rhyn.... leha ???? hmmm dnt ask.. sebok cerite kn psl aiman larhh c monyet 2 larhh... n wad soo ever larhh.. mlz mau lyn..
hmmm well...
mondae i got mly dance.. gonna doe my steps. all in a sad face... n crying all dae...
dnt stop me.... hmm.. cz i will defenitely cry kae... hmmm... i tk kesah larhh brape tahun pn... i akn tetap tunggu eu shyg.....
fer abg.??? hmmmm
well i hope hys fiance will wait fer hym wyp patient.... hmmm.... gonna mish them if they r not outside here wyp me.... well....
if i haf the choice 2 follow eu all or stay outside.. i will choice 2 stay wyp eu all.... follow krg... aq keseorangan di sinie..... siapa larhh yg akn phm isi haty ku ini.......
luke di dlm belum di ubati....
hmmm..... soon gonna be
LONELY....
without them i feel lyke i cnt manage myself.... i need them 2 guide me along 2... 2 my beloved bro.... jgn nottie2 tau kt dlm.. adq harap krg happie2 slalu tkmo gdh2 eeeppp die nnt heheh ( ngs sad sempat uat jokes BDH).....
hmmm... well.... fer my HUBBIE.........
gonna mish eu wen eu r inside.. well eu cnt c im crying bt inside i m.... i hope eu noe......
eu make me change alot biiee... thnkxx.... eu my one in a million guy.... my love 2 eu is more den eu imagine... well.. i hope eu understand.... hmm... i need eu by my side.. bt now.. eu cnt....
i hope we cn last long2 tau... hmmm... if i've made any mistake im sorrie.. hmm.... well.. i noe im not perfect fer eu... bt at least i noe how 2 love eu with all my heart....
eu sanggop stop isap rkk larhh d**g larhh n more jz bcz of me dear... thnkx fer det....
well.. if lelaki laen tk trau r.. drg mesty langgar nye... MCM ABG R 2.. heheh....
hmmm.... tkmo nottie2 tau pt dlm.... i will pray fer eu det.. eu ok ok je pt dlm.. safe inside der.... kt dlm nnt jg lupe mamam tau... hmmm.... tkmo termenong2.... NOE INSYA'ALLAH kae shyg.... hmmm.... ingat pesan2 i kae..
well i will not menggatal out here.. nk menggatal ngn sape?? eu blg i... hmm i've lost my own besties..... he dumb me one side.. hmm... my frenz?? all TK GUNE 1 larhh.. hmm...
onlie eu, abg n rhyn make me smile2 although my heart is broken into pieces....
well
about the slashing thingy i did dulu im sorrie...
sorrie psl my smile all fake smile... bt fer eu guys i will try 2 make it real n nt fake lyke pirated vcd.. hahah...
HMMM... abg n my hubbie mmg larhh da pt dlm.. rhyn ?? hmmm.. well.. die ngn raihan r...
ku serah je kepada illahi untk menentu kn nye....
aq redha.................... i had enough of all those fake smile 2 eu guys.. IM SOOOOOOO DAMN SORRIIIEE!!!!!
:'(
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well.... i hope eu all fergive me......
abg n my hubbie...
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!MY LOVE 2 EU GUYS WILL NVR DIE...
eventhough sometymes eu make me sad... or mad.. or angry... i will be patient n still smile all wae long....
hmmm....
hope krg happie2 always tau... tkmo lupe kn fifie tau...
mish krg sgt.....
Blogged @ 9:00 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
farid journal:
saleha came to my place wif my best friends,
and i was at the house wanted to went down stair..
after i went down,
saleha give me all my thing back...?
and i told saleha why my thing wif her???
and she say tat FUCKER IDIOT ,
want to separate our friendship?
and i say why suddenly she wanna to separate???
and she say cause his guy and god brother..
and i say nvrmind..
if she wanna do me like tis,
i will return back wat his guy and god brother do to me...
i won't keep quiet key???
FUCK THE GUY AND HIS GOD BROTHER....!!!!
AND LAST NOT LESS,
MAKCIK KAU NYE PUKI AR (AYIEE,ACHIT NGN FIONA).....!!!!
YOU THINK YOU SO SPECIAL AR???
I THINK YOU GO TO HELL MORE GOOD KEY BYE???!!!!!
(my pic below here...)
LIKE WAD THE FUCK!!!!!!! 2 jantan put det in hys journal... kiwekk ku perhh binget.. mcm sial
r nie jantan..... tk nk terime kenyataan sial!!!! kau siap kau.. abg kuar ayiee kuar... nasib kau
sipy2 je r eh boi....... kau pk perq.. aq nk lps kn kaw 2 mcm je perq sialan.. HARAMI!!!! lau krg
nk tau bdq bername MOHAMMAD FARID BIN OMAR nie...... suke physco org... mcm sial kn....
dulu aq kene now kwn2 aq.. aq da mlz mau ameq tau r...
kiwekk pe sial salah aq.... ape sala abg aq.. mak cik aq... mataer aq n aq....... kaw tk dpt kwn ngn
aq psl abg angkat aq n mataer aq tk kasy... 2 pn kaw nk balas perq... kaw pk aq tk tau pe kaw
uat kt aq dulu.. kau physco aq kaw phm tk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kau btl nye sundal r eh..!! kaw
ngn pmpn biyatch kaw lerhh jln ddk 1 corner larhh sial!!! sundal siak due2...
EU TYNK I REALLIE CARE.... PK PERQ DULU AQ KWN NGN KAW AFTER THE FIGHT 2
SINCERE EH!!!! eh sorrie siket eh 2 pretend je larhh.. yg kaw msg2 kt tagged ngn adq quien2
(adq aq 2).. .2 sume aq larhh eh
n yg leha nye pn.. its all me fucker........ ALL ME!!!!!
KAW JGN NK STEP TERROR LARHH BOIII!!! aru nk msk NS siott... aq harap kaw menderite
kt dlm r siall..... k fyne aq tau mamat aq blm nk msk NS... at least masih ade ruang lagy untok
brubah sblm msk... KIWEKKKK AQ CAMPAK KAW JGK R KT DLM LAOT R.... B4 DET AQ
IKAT KAKI TGN KAW... DEN LTK 3 CHAIN BASIKAL TKNK R...... 10 CHAIN BASIKAL YG
BESAR KN..... DEN AQ CMPK KAW KT DLM LAOT JAOH2.. KAW TENGGELAM... TKLERH
NAEK... HAHAH KAW MATY!! KIWEKK FUN SIA 2!!!!
ARGH!!!!
kaw tklerhhh tgk aq happie perqq sial.. now kaw buat aiman ngn leha mcm anjeng ka.. kaw mane
nye besar r!!!!! pk r sial!!! anak sundal....
MAK KAW TK AJAR KAW PERHH SIAL!!!
kaw tk tau nk respect owg....
aq tau tau r dulu kaw TECK WHYE nye....
kn aq da kuar kn.. geram siakk...
kaw pk kaw dulu bdq baju pk aq heran sgt per... walaupon aq pmpn eh.. aq siket pn TAK gentar
larhh sial!!! kaw nk fight mehh sini.... lau kaw jantan mmg dayus kaw da pukol aq r.. kaw rembat
aq.. aq relekxx.. pmpn kaw je nnt jady mangse aq.... gereq sial!! jgn smpai aq kasy pmpn kaw kt
owg!!! den kene rolling tau.. kene rolling tkpe.. FINGER DIE PELAN2 TIL LERHH MASOK KN
4 FINGER.. N MASOK KN DUE KONEK SIAL KT DLM... aq rase kaw pn tk shukerq kn.. kaw nk
uat 2 mcm pt aq.. mehh try dulu r!!! lyke eu sae!!!
HERAN TK HERAN GOYANG TK GOYANG....
mehh aq add in tk complete 2... mehh aq complete kn
n those werds r for eu from me eh..
HERAN TAK HERAN
GOYANG TAK GOYANG
GENTAR TAK GENTAR
R EH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FIONA BTE ISMAIL SIKET
TKDA GOYANG NGN KAW
PeYH PERMAINAN...!!!!!!
ingat r eh!!!!
remember this name r eh
b4 doing anytynk 2
the ppl i love n close 2
BILE2 FIONA BTE ISMAIL
ANYTYME...!!! TKDA GENTAR N
SAMA LU R MAT.....Labels: pk sbelom kaw uat bende eh boi........................maseh pragai YP TAU KAW INGAT 2...........................
Blogged @ 8:23 PM
kini aq sendirian... mengapa semua ini harus berlaku... aq tk mntk pn untk jady berginie... asl nie sume berlaku kepada diriku ini......
bie... soon eu will be inside... left me alone in this wide space in the werld.... bagaimana harus aq terus kn hidup ku tanpa mu di sbelah ku.... aq kesepian.... aq keseorangan di dunie yg serbe luas ini... kaw larhh segala nya pada ku.. walaupn kite slalu gdh... i dnt mind... i noe antare kite mesty ade uat sala.... itu larhh cinte... dlm perhugungan kalau tk gdh mmg bkn hubungan name nye.. hmmm... biee.... jgn larhh tinggal kn i sendirian di luar nie.... lau eu lerhh bawak i ... plss doe... hmmm.... i tknk ddk srg2 pt dunie yg luas ini seorgan.... i tkt... i cn manage myself... i gt 5 werds fer eu shyg.. JGN TINGGAL KN KU KESEORANGAN... hmmm.. plish bie...
i tknk... :'(
tapi 1 tynk i akn tunggu eu smpai eu kuar..... i tk akn cariq org laen walaupn eu suroh i cariq org laen... i tk nk kae.. jgn pakse i kalau i tknk... i nk ngn eu je.. plish.. i nk eu onlie eu k... kalau eu nk tgk i menderite.... sensare... eu tinggal kn larhh i.... bende yg dilarang buat i buat taw.... cz i cn bare 2 leave eu... walau mcm mane pn i nk jgk ngn eu till the last breath of myne reach... kalau i da "TKDE" detz ur problem lau nk cariq pengganti i larh.. tapi slagy i masih hidop nie i nk ngn eu aje kae... i tknk tinggal kn e.. biar org kate I DESPO NK EU.... i dnt give a fcking care bout det.. org nk mengate,,, mengate r.. asl kn i tau yg mane btl n salah........ i tau pe i nk n tk nk.... ape drg kesah.. pe drg nk ckp.. ckp larhh.. i tk kesah.... org nk kate i bdh nk tunggu kn eu.... lau eu da kuar means bekas bdq dalam bekas penangeh ke ape ke.. sooo wat.. i damn fcking care larhh..... lau i kate i nk means i nk.. walaupn ibu tk suke eu.. i nga pelan2 make her like eu... psl smlm 2.. ibu mengamok kejap je.. ibu totally hate eu but i try pelan2 kasy die suke eu.... its fyne now... ur mum hate me.. my mum hate eu.... sooo.. tapie kalau da jdh....!!! tk kn kemane dear.... hmm... i da heran lagy pe kate org luar nie sume...my heart is onlie fer eu... lagy pn now my own besties pn da tkde.. i feel like he dumb me.. i haf noe 1 now.. kawan ??? hmmm tk gune biiiee.....
hmmm i onlie one eu.. ssh sgt ke permintaan i ini.... smpai nie sume harus berlaku....
wen eu kt dlm jgn lupe pesan2 i tau... jage diri.... jgn gdh.... hmmm...... lau lerh cntct i cntct k.... pape lau da released kol i atau ape2 larhh 2 cntct me n tell me kae dear :'(
i will be waiting fer eu shyg..
remember...
FOR EVER WHITE ROSE.....
Labels: i akn rindu eu shyg... kini ku keseorgan tanpa teman
Blogged @ 2:42 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
hmmm narie aq btl2 pnt.. hmm mane ngn mly dance aq nga saket lagy.. wow... narie mly dance ok kot.. hmm recall step je.... hmm... pnt nk mampos lagy2 aq nga mabok... den... da 2 tkpe .. tapy b4 det mak aq kt umh da memekak r.... haish..... mly dance pnt2.. hmmm ayiee tk ameq aq narrie hasih... nvm larhh biar r die... hmmm well... den tyme aq on9 die kate lau die MATY tc of myself n cariq lelaki yg lagy baek dary die... kiwekk die pk aq ape siak.... tkde perasaan pe ???? (sorie r aq nie mcm nga binget r)
haish..... aq ade perasaan sia haish biar r lantarq r ckp ngn die.... die tk pernah phm isi haty aq.. haish.... pe mau uat kn da naseb aq nie mcm kn... hmmm.. laen r sia lau die busted aq.. 2 aru aq cariq laen n jntn 2 plk kene busted ngn aq hmm.... noe more setie if this tyme round ade org busted aq .. i mean die busted aq.. hmmm....
well.. nie aru tadie kak sdare aq chat ngn 2 ayiee... ayiee kate tk knl aq ???!!!! tk binget perq 2 mcm... haish.... pe naseb aq narrieee.. tyme mly dance kene mrh.. haish.. kt umh kene mrh.. ngn kak sdare aq kene mrh haish.... haish.. da larhhh aq tk tau larhh pe naseb aq narrie... naseb kak sdare aq visit je... lau tidor sinie kene lecture siak.. haish.... narie naseb aq mmg mlg... haish... aq tk tau pe lagy akn jady nnt....haish.. i hate my dae fer 2dae.. bnyq nahh kene mrh.... aq ade HATY dan PERASAAN.. mcm org laen jgk... hmm... instucter pn mcm ehem tady... mcm ade PMS pn ade sia.. haish... pe larhh naseb aq narie YA ALLAH!!!!! da larhhh
aq nk rest.. bt i wanna chat 1st r byee
Labels: BINGET 1 HARRIE NIE... UNLUCKY DAE FERR ME....
Blogged @ 4:47 PM
Thursday, November 5, 2009
smlm kes trq r... lehh soo called today larhh pagy2.... hmmm..... well.. me n ayiee lpk pt umh aq... hmmm... well.. lpk2 jerq.. den tk prasan tyme da pkl 12+ mane ade bas lagy.. soo die kene over nyte kt umh aq r... well... kite plan 2 kasy die sembunyi bile ibu n ayah aleq... bt due2 tertdo.. hmmm pe mau buat.. haish.. at last ibu aleq ibu bkk pint.. saw us.. K.A.N.T.O.I.. hmmm da kene mrh .. hmm lantarq r.. aq selubong dlm slimot trz tdo. hmm.. well ibu ask hym 2 goe bck... i ask hym 2 wait anywhere ltr cn goe in bck.. tapy... ayh pt luar till pkl 6 larhh shey.. hmmm... den skali pkl 5+ r... ade org kol aq tk angkat at 1st second tyme aru aq angkat.. den he sae he from the police department den i was lyke... OMG r shey.. hmmm..
well... da kuar 2 tkpe.. police plk kol aq.. haish.. kate ayiee kt tangge.. ade org report.. ya allah... bkn nye die kcau org. hmmmm well... hmmm cian hubbie aq 2... haish... pe larhh malang nasib kite berdue smlm.. hmmm.. i hope he doesnt get any scolding from hys mum.. haish... really worried bout hym.. hmm.. i tynk if he came 2 my house we need 2 st the timing larh.. haish.... teroq r.. hmm... due2 kene caught.. haish...
oh ya wen the police called me.. i tot someone is playing a prank on me.. bt at last they come 2 my house wyp my hubbie along.. i was shock..... ah kaw.. pk org play prank ameq kaw btl2 bapak polisi dtg.. haish.. till now ayiee tk cntct aq.. risau btl aq... haish
da larhh nk termenong dulu r...
pape i will update ltr bye!
Labels: smlm naseb malang sgt2 r
Blogged @ 10:17 AM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
wow!! narie pnt nk mampozz... aq keje narrie jady kendarat pt umh leha... abg wan die kawin.. kiut shey abg wan n kak misah.. heheh... hmmm.... pnt3... crius... diri all é wae da larhh kene gastrict tadiee waliaw.. stomach cramp lagy walaiw!!! teroq3.... heheh... bt overall ok larhh.. duet kendarat $5 kt bunge.. haha.. den tyme aq nk ale babah(bpk leha) kasi lagy $20 well.. appriciate it lot shey.. well.. pnt2 pn fun jgk tau heheh.. well.. lps da kemas2 sume pt bwh.. aq nurul n leha ddk pt tangge pt atas... kite bbl2... psl keje larhh.. psl phamily larh.. kwn.. fa2 sume kuar hahah.... well gereq larhh jgk mcm tk nk baleq pn ade haha.... it was lyke freaking fun.. well.. phamily leha phamily angkat aq pe... mane lerh tk fun hahah... oh ya gelak gelak jgk.. tadiee..... part pengatin da sandig sume kn.... abgwan nyanyi lagu gadis melayu.. .KAU!!! smpai gelek2 sume.. kiut sioolll die 2 da larhh chubby hahah........ lyke teddy bear... kiut crius.. hahah.... hmmmm fun3.... heheh... hmmmm well... kt sane aq kasy2 berkat fer kids.. well tk rmai bdq2 r soo lpk 1 corner r.. hahah.... abeh lyn si faadhil lagy hahah... die da tinggi shey.. heheh.... makin tinggi.. die kate aq still mcm dulu kecyq pendek.. haha... well wad 2 doe kn.. hmmm..... aq bnyq share info ngn die.. hahah well i jz get to noe me n faadhil sdare... bt sdare jaoh r.. tk tau larhh how 2 sae r. sepupu ke due pupu ke tige empat pupu pt aq tk tau r.. hahah..... well fun r bbl ngn die joke2 around. hahah best.. heheh.... well die maken chubby shey.. tembam.. hahah.... but botak cz aru kaur dary boys home..... hahah cian die.. well now pape aq update die shey.. heheh... kite share our problems together hehe.......=D
hmmm k larhh gtg... pnt r... ltr wanna bath again den slp.. heheh
nyte2 ppl...
heheh
muackxxxxxxx
Labels: slamat pengatin baru abgwan kush tershyg... heheh
Blogged @ 11:53 PM
